Sorry not sorry
People keep saying I’ve changed. Other say I’m nothing but a lying, cheating whore. Some say I’m fake. They have no idea what’s going on in my life or how I truly feel.
I wish some days that I could go back in time and change everything. I wouldn’t make the same mistakes that I have that have got me where I am today. Then there are other days that I am thankful for those mistakes and choices that have got me where I am. I wouldn’t have met the people I have met or have the outlook that I have on life. I’m sorry that I’ve done the things that I have or that I have hurt who I have.
I am not sorry for being a girl who can stand on her own two feet without anyone else helping me. I am not sorry for being the girl who trusts few and speaks what’s on her mind. If you can’t accept me for who I am then please feel free to show yourself to the door in which you chose to come into my life in.
I am currently on night number 3 of NOT being able to sleep. I don’t know what it is, but when nighttime comes around my body decides to be full throttle. I’d love for it to shut down like other people’s bodies do, but unfortunately my body doesn’t comprehend this topic. Needless to say during the day I’m exhausted, but even then I can’t sleep much. I hate taking meds to make me sleep yet I’m afraid that’s going to be my only option. Hoping that my body decides to get back on a “normal” sleeping pattern again soon. If not there will be many late night posts!
Life has been pretty crazy lately. I recently took a trip to Pipestem for the ESCAPe conference. For those who don’t know what this is, it is an EMS and firefighter conference. I had a lot of fun, as usual, and learned some new things. I recently had my second IV infusion and I’m hoping it starts to work better. Staying busy is how my life goes. I wouldn’t trade my life for anything though. I enjoy each an everyone of my friends and family.
Can’t wait for Spring
The weather has been absolutely amazing lately. I have been able to go take a stroll at the park every day and it’s been wonderful. Sophie, my dog, has also enjoyed getting out of the cramped house. If only spring would arrive sooner. ~sigh~ I start my 30 day squat challenge March 1, and I’m super excited about it. I’ve also been watching what I eat lately in hopes that I can start losing some weight. I’ll keep ya updated on how it goes. Come on spring I’ve got lots of great new things planned for us!!
Thankful that this month is over in a half an hour. I have had a rough month between my arthritis and worrying about when or if I would ever get my medication. I finally was able to get my medication, but not sure how well it is working. As if that wasn’t enough stress I learned I may lose one of my two jobs causing me to need another one soon. I know things could be a lot worse, but I worry every day if I’m going to have a roof over my head. I’m keeping my head above water, but it’s not easy. I keep reminding myself to “just keep swimming.” Hoping February treats me better than January has.
Happy New Year!!
I want to wish everyone a year full of joy and blessings. May you each have many more wonderful years. Have fun tonight and be safe. Remember to be safe and not drink and drive. May 2014 be the best year ever!!
Love like you’ll never be hurt,
Sing like there’s nobody listening,
And live like it’s heaven on earth. William W. Purkey
Should you shop on Thanksgiving Day?
What is your opinion on people shopping on Thanksgiving Day?
I personally don’t have a problem with people shopping on Black Friday, but I do NOT think that people should shop on Thanksgiving Day. I previously worked in retail and when the holidays come around people get even more rude than normally. The holidays were meant to spend time at home with your family. I feel bad enough for EMS, Fire, and Police personnel because they don’t get the choice to work on the holidays. Yes they did choose that job, but it’s still not fun to work on a holiday. I think that we have forgotten what the holidays are about, and instead we are too worried about pleasing everyone. I want everyone to seriously think about their families and if they would want to be working the holidays before going out and shopping. If you wouldn’t want to work on a holiday then don’t expect someone else to want to. Stay at home and enjoy your time with your family. Don’t shop on Thanksgiving day!